Still married in my mind

After the surgery and she came home we worked hard in fixing that void in our hearts. The cracks were filled in with new memories but still not perfect. Many nights we would sit silent and hold each other. No words needed to be spoken just wanted to be close to each other.

We slowly reached a “normal” point in our life. Then, we started to re-plan for a wedding on May 19, 2024. I remember telling my brother he better be standing next me, he agreed after some long talks. She found a beautiful horse farm in Snow Hill, Maryland that we decided on. The weeks up to the wedding felt easy. This is all we have wanted for so long. I’m finally here.

The day was finally here. I arrived at 9 am. The room was full of the closest men in my life, and a little guy named Jackson was also there. We had so many laughs, pictures, and just a good time. I read the letter she wrote me. I had to walk outside to catch my breathe and dry my eyes.

Our first look was right before the wedding. I was holding a miniature horse. When I turned to see her, my eyes filled with tears. I almost let the horse go. My best friend looked like the most beautiful person I had ever laid my eyes on truly a Disney princess.

Around 3 pm, We made our way to the area I would become a husband. I watched as my sister came down the aisle with my wife’s little cousin. She hit her mother dead in the face with a handful of flower pedals, I watched as the entire crowd stood and watched her father walk her down the aisle to me. Our eyes never left each other, the world stopped and time remained still, just like the stories say it would. I still don’t remember what my brother was trying to tell me in that moment. The ceremony ended with us being called Mr. and Mrs. Lacinski and to this day that is still the happiest moment of my life.

As I look back on that day, I wouldn’t have change a thing! The day was like a fairy-tale she even wore a tiara like a Disney princess.

We came home and started to build on a life we had already had of love and hope.